Sunday, December 23, 2018

Random thoughts: Looking back at 2018

Looking back at 2018, I have not been effective.

I have not done what I can control. My emotional is on a roller coaster ride due to negative feedback at work, a weaken father, and a non-performing portfolio.

I however, like to give thanks to a supportive wife and a wonderful family.

I was very frustrated caring for my dad. It seem that his capability to take care of his daily needs are getting weaker. Caregiving is getting tougher because his situation does not seem to improve. There are various occasions where I raise my voice at him.

I was very demoralized at work too, but I had written a post on it and I shall not dwell on it any longer. My health checks show my liver is getting worse and I am putting on weight. (hahahaha)

I would like to remind myself of the serenity prayer:

"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference."

This quote gave me a different perspective this year. I used to focus on the word, "accept". Now I realize serenity is one important key word that should come together with acceptance. Whatever I do wrong, whatever makes me unhappy, I would like to wash it away every night in a bath, and not bring it with me.

The courage to change things, depends a lot of mindfulness. Mindfulness clear the mind on what is possible, and provide the focus and clarity.

I am very fortunate to meet a teacher who advice me for 2 hours on how to move forward, and I feel lighten by the burden. My dad situation did not improve but I have not raise my voice and become my patience. 

I thank god for a testing 2018 to strengthen me, although I might have fail the test, I will continue to see how best I can to move forward. 

Merry Christmas to all, may your 2018 makes you wiser and stronger for 2019

16 comments:

  1. Jiayou Sillyinvestor. It is very tough to maintain emotions when times are trying. We are only human. Hope you have a good christmas a new year!

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  2. Hi SmOl 30yoi and UN,

    Thank you for your kind words. I will survive. Merry Christmas

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  4. Hi Sillyinvestor,

    Perhaps can consider hiring maid or getting professional help for your dad? Care-giving can become a full-time job, not to mention the emotional frustration. The guilt can be terrible after the care-giver loses control of his temper.

    By the way, take care of your health too. Can't take care of dependents if own health is failing.

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    1. Hi Hyom,

      Yup, the helper is coming in mid Jan. Fingers crossed until then ..

      Thank you for your kind words

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  5. I like the serenity prayer too.
    Jia you!! When it comes to work, just do your best is enough le, the rest don't care too much. Family love is much more important. Year 2019 will be a good year for you.
    KW

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    1. Yup...

      Making a living. Enjoy the company of kids. A step at a time

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  6. Sillyinvestor, i didn't talk to you for very long already. How are you?

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    1. Hi nicole, I am fine how is secondary school.

      中学都还好吧,谁跟你同班

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  7. I am little late here. I wish you a cheerful 2019. Hope you have a great year ahead.

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  8. These are the nice random thoughts.

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  11. i can relate. both my parents are ill at the same time and has no financial means while my career is going thru a roller coaster too. the stress is real...

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