He dreamed of the day he could leave the field and do what he likes. He is not too sure what he wants, but he enjoy fishing at the lake, the feeling of owning the world, and simply watching the world move by.
He worked extra hard, learning about new farming techniques, use of fertilizers, rotation of crops etc. He made progress, but one storm killed his harvest. He slip into depression.
He picked himself up again, and swore not to let life get the better of him, and he tried again. This time round, he is more successful. Then his son fell sick, and he has to spend a fortune curing his son.
The second setback was too
Much for him. He now make just enough to make ends meet. There is just too much uncertainty. He find time for himself and fishing. He taught he has found the life he wanted, until he couldn't find the money to treat his wife cancer, and his wife knowing the situation, refused treatment too.
The farmer is full of guilt, and cried and cried. His son blamed him. He yell at his wife, whenever his wife smiled at him on her sick bed.
When his wife conditions worsen, he ran to the temple, and pray for help. He got none.
His wife passed away.
He used alcohol to lessen his pain. His son has to give up his studies to help with the family expenses.
He keep yelling at his son. He realised his son now smiled at him the same way his wife did. It hurted him.
He went fishing, and didn't returned home for days. When he did, he saw his abondoned field. He regret his despondency. He went back and found whatever valuables that was left was gone with the son.
He look back at his wretched life and ask if he could turn back time, what would he have done differently?
He went back to the field to toil. It seems to understand his pain, and he gave all he got to the field.
A few years later, with only work in his mind, and nothing else, his farm business grow, and his life and fortune turn for better.
There was another storm in another province, and a businessman came to him, wanting to buy out his whole farm. He told the farmer " quote your price."
The farmer said "take all you need"
The businesman said:" what can I do for u?"
The farmer said:" if only I stop caring about myself only, my pain, my dream, my life, earlier"
I need nothing, take them. Help the victims, just let me continue toiling the soil.