Friday, December 18, 2015

Random thoughts: a letter to Santa


Dear Santa,

I am quite sure I am too old to be on your  Santa list. I am quite sure I have not been good too in 2015. But, I am still writing to you.

When I saw the bear's wish list at the Flowers Dome, I smiled. So many things in a list. 

I thought "so greedy. Yet so childlike"

When I thought  of what I wanted, I realised I am the most greedy of them all.

I want happiness, good health, resilence, etc.

But then I realise most people who wish for these usually already have such things. So, what I really wanted is the continuity of good health, happiness and such. LOL, talk about greed. Which grown-up ask for iPad or IPhone 6 LOL.
That would be contentment.

Material consumption no longer satisfied my lust, I wanted a lifestyle.

I draft this letter in the morning but it is 10p.m at night, and I still couldn't come up with an item to put in this list. Not that you will give it to me. Perhaps just a list to spite you and proof to myself Santa no longer lived. 

Tried as I might, I thought of the following:
To strike group 1 toto.
(But I don't buy Toto and that would be too scary and errie if I do strike TOTO after writing to you)

Then I thought maybe a new computer with my favorite game fallout 4 thrown in.
(But I realize I don't have the luxury of time since holiday is coming to an end and it is not the same RPG with abundance choices according to reviews I read)

I thought maybe a beautiful gold necklace for my wife. Then I realise I already co-share the costs with her and bought it for her as Christmas
Present. Cheapo right, and damn me for not practicing delayed gratification. Told u I have not been good in 2015.

Maybe a condominium for our family to lived in. So that I need not be jealous of other friends who might not earn as much as me but buying and upgrading properties nonetheless. Those who earn more than me, they already have Mutiple properties already. 
But such expensive Wish is like asking to strike toto, and most importantly,
I think I provide a home and I am a gift to my family more than the bricks and mortar can offer. (I know I very BHB, aka shameless, I dun want to repeat I have been bad for 2015)

All that I wanted, in terms of lifestyle, perhaps is that of Fiancial freedom where I could retired young and have all three elements of time, energy and money. Yes, I think that would make me happy. 

But I did not have the discipline and heart to change my mindset and bring my family on broad on this dream, so it shall remain a dream. 

Santa, you know, I meet someone whose occupation would usually be frown upon or even despised. Nope, "不偷不抢” not robbery or theft. I asked" are you not scared doing what you do?" She replied "so, am I expected to wait for money to drop from the sky?"

I have been bad, Santa, because I expect money to drop from the sky. 

Lifestyle. The most expensive gift. Some people sacrifice more than time to achieve it.

Some achieve it through grit. Some achieve it through lower expectations. Some achieve it through brilliance.

Santa, if u have not fall asleep yet, maybe you can give me one thing. Let Koei create another series of romance of three kingdoms game like that of series 11. Series 12 really sucks and they keep producing brainless dynasty warriors.

I would like that game for 2016? Can? I will try to be good for 2016. Early bird request got discount? 

What do you want? 

7 comments:

  1. Hi SI,

    Haha, never believed in Santa in my whole life lol Quite sad, come to think of it.

    I wish for the same as you, happiness, prosperity and good health. Can't wait for santa to drop the presents, so have to work hard for it myself. Maybe, if I work hard from now till Xmas next year, I'll have the presents that I want this year ;)

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    1. LP,
      I belived most people ask for the same. Come to think of it, happiness health and resilence, it is life of the deity / immortal already. Lol

      Ask for 1 million easier for the jinn

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  2. Hello SI,

    Funny that I also thought about the things on my wishlist recently. But I was not asking from Santa.

    My wife and I had gone to 四马路观音堂 on Friday because she wanted to pray (she's a Buddhist while I'm not).

    In front of the altar, I thought about what I'd pray for. It seems shallow of me to ask for money and fortune, for these I have my own plans to achieve. In the end, I prayed for the Goddess of Mercy to grant peace and good health for my wife and my two boys.

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  3. Hello SI,

    Funny that I also thought about the things I wish for recently. But it was from Santa.

    My wife and I had gone to 四马路观音堂 on Friday because she wanted to pray (she's a Buddhist while I'm not).

    In front of the altar, I thought about what I'd pray for. It seems shallow of me to ask for money and fortune, for these I have my own plans to achieve. In the end, I prayed for the Goddess of Mercy to grant peace and good health for my wife and my two boys.

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    1. SS,

      My wife also frequently ask for family wealth beings with goodness of mercy. She also ask for son's enrollment to primary school, etc.

      I always tell/tease her 菩萨very busy lei, need to look after so many things.

      But come to think of it, my wife is as innocent as the bear, asking for this and that.

      I always ask for 正念(right thoughts) when I pray. Then I realise that is perhaps one of the hardest thing to bestow ..lol

      Who is the greedy one ??

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  4. Hi SI,

    I haven't played Dynasty Warriors for so long already. You make me want to buy a 2nd hand PS3 just to play that game. =p

    I think I can feel you with regards to wanting a "lifestyle" wish instead of just another "item".

    I think you are not doing too badly there. You're talking about a second kid and maybe an upgrade to a condo but some of us are still waiting for that first child or first home.

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  5. Hi 15hww,

    Never tried dynasty warrior. But h prefer the strategic game ... I played from series 2 all the way to series 12, since secondary 2!

    Actually, I am not complaining about my life... Er... But it's ok. I think beside money/ spirtual ... I am really doing ok la...

    4/5 beside the 2 domains ... I won't give 5/5 lol poke Poke someone

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