When I get into secondary school, I had the most discontentments.
My parents were always quarreling
I need to help clean up the hawker stall at night
I lived in a cramped HDB that did not even have a table for study.
Do not have enough pocket money to go out with friends.
Do not have video games at home
Now I realised then I could
1) sleep as long as I liked as long as I do not have Saturday CCA training.
2) free to roam around until 8 pm before I reached home, even on non- CCA days
3) parents who didn't bother or too busy to bother about my studies, so that I grow independently and work at my own pace.
4) My parents who in return, never expect anything in return, be it money, time or love.
So, I wondered, 30 years later, when I looked back and see myself now, there will definitely be things which I missed.
Some blessings which will only be understood in hindsight.
Then another thought came:
If I knew what I know then, 20 to 25 years ago, would it make a difference.
I am not sure. I will still be unhappy with the quarreling. I might save better, with more allowance to go out with friends, but if not for yesterday experince, would I be what I am today?
At the end of the day, I do think hindsight understanding is overrated.