I thought about it. I would like a nation with confidence and love. It's people not worried about competition and yet gracious about losing. Productive and innovative workforce that placed relationships and family at the forefront.
I understand whatever we have today is built upon the fact that our economy is vibrant. We do not have a choice to live it like hermit, or take a different pace like Icelanders or sorts. But they doesn't mean we have to pursue economic growth at all costs.
Now, since I am Singaporean, am I part of the future or the opposite?
Clearly, I am not as confident.
I ask myself, what were my dreams when I am younger. I realised I have pursuit my aspiration but never my dreams. My dream is just cheap castle building.
My aspiration is to be a teacher. I remembered when we are getting our 'o' levels, and I told me friends I wanted to be a teacher, one of them said:" siao! You think properly hor, you can study one, don't waste your results."
I have no regrets teaching. I remember during my army days, I sit by the marina river, looking at the financial buildings. I thought to myself, I want one of the building to bear my name or company name next time. That is my cheap dream, because I did nothing to pursuit that. It's not about failing, because I didn't even try.
In recent years, I did have a dream in FI, although the specifics of it did change, I didn't give up on it.
Will FI help in the bigger Singapore dream of confidence? Maybe. I don't know.
Now, I just want to watch my son grow up properly.
Today, I went to the singapore Orchid Garden, it is the most beautiful garden I have been, beating even Gardens by the Bay. It is always there, just never discovered by me. To think we travel far to Japan to see lavender during our Honeymoon when we have a orchid paradise at our backyard.