Today, I just had this silly thought. I am not too sure if I can have a reasonable retirement, and I do hope to work as long as possible. However, I realize the working as long as possible didn't really turn me off.
After I took a back seat in my career, I do have more time during the school holidays. Even we could not travel, and have quite a long period of time of doing "Nothing". Reading newspaper, researching on companies, exercising etc.
Things I hope I can spend more time on when I "semi-retired". Yet, truth to be done, it is only enjoyable for the first few days, when I recuperated. Thereafter, I am actually yearning to go back to work, and felt that I am kind of wasting my time.
It then suddenly dawns on me, how lucky I am, and also how thankful I should be.
I enjoy my work, and need not retire early to start doing something I enjoy.
What I do not have is just financial independence.
This is a wonderful job, a job that lets me connect and also learn to let go. This morning, as I sips my coffee, I reminded myself that I should just do my best, and enjoy my time as much as possible with my pupils. They will leave me in a few months, and I should make full use of my time with them. This desire to make full use of time NOW, is how I always think of my time with my dad. Before he became so weak, and was down with dementia, I tried to spend my time with him, bring him out, and have dinner. It wasn't always wonderful time, but looking back, I have few regrets now, that he passed on.
Every year, I send off the graduating class. I usually bond quite well with a number of them, and funny and clinch it might sound, closer to the end of the year, I do suffer some mild "separation anxiety"
Connecting and then letting go. I considered as Zen Training too. Every year, a few of them becomes more than just pupils to teach, but sweet memories and "friends"
Getting a pay doing all these is just really striking lottery every working day.