I takes a while, but I think I am on the way up now, until I hit the next "ohh..."
The problem is not the piled up work of 12 to do things when I stared at my desktops which did not include teaching when stepped into the workplace. And by the way, 2-3 of them are overdued
The problem is not my pupils are not performing.
The problem is not about possible lack of money.
The problem is also not fatigue.
The Real problem is fear of tackling them.
I need to go through the downs and sleepless nights and chest tightness, to be compressed enough to get that long lost "CCB" moments back.
"F** the shits" just face it and do it. Worries causing sleepless nights? Used the nights to clear the work then.
Firefighting and trouble shooting again? Just face it. Do it.
Need trade-offs? Just trade it. Someone might be unhappy due to some action or decisions on my part? If I can get past myself, just do it.
Want a Starbucks coffee as a reward for a long hard day? F* the calories and the money lost in compounding,
Drink be happy, and get on with work.
The shortest way past a problem is going through it.