I finally caught myself.
I missed my pupils. Counting down to the days left before I don't get to see them anymore.
Years ago, in my previous school, I had that feeling too. Feeling lost after a graduating batch leave me, not sure what else left to do.
The last three years, I have been worrying about the release of the results, because I worried about not meeting my KPI, I worried that I do not produce results, what would my subordinates think of me.
So much so that, I didn't have this feeling of missing my pupils anymore. Not that I am not worried about their results this time round. I am.
But I didn't realize I see them more as a statistic than a person. Each person is 1 percent pass or 1 percent quality pass.
The last 5 years I have learnt a lot. But I think it is a bad journey as a human. Hope it get better, I am harbouring thoughts of leaving too frequently and feeling frustration too often.
May all those who deserves to do well on the 22 Nov do well, and if they didn't do well despite their best efforts, may God let them see that adversity can be a jumping board to great things and they get stronger.